Life Will Never Be The Same

by Kelly
(New York)

I lost my dad April 18th 2013. He was 64 years old. I was 37 at the time. I feel so alone since hes gone. I feel so sad that my children 2 and 4 will never know him. I feel so sad that I cant talk to him, I have no one for guidance, no one to lean on and my children will never know the joy that he brought. It almost feels like half of my life died with him. How will I explain to my children the wonderful memories he provided. It feels like its all gone and now I am just one step closer to my own death.

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Jun 17, 2014
I understand
by: Trish


First of all I am so sorry for your loss. I came to this site on father's day, my first father's day without my dad this year 2014, the heart break has been unbearable. My father fell in my driveway April 13th 2013 while playing with my 4 year old, he suffered a traumatic brain injury, they gave him only 3 days to live but one doctor said their might be hope since he responded to some commands & his name. So we went on hope, he never did come out of his coma state but we can only hope he heard our undying love for him because he lived 6 months & 9 days after his fall until he passed of congestive heart failure October 22nd 2013. I mentioned I had a 4 year old who is now 5 but I also had another boy December 2012, my dads 10th grandchild which I am so happy he was there for that but only 4 months old when my dad fell. So I understand the pain of not being able to share that person with your children they way you really wanted to. My dad went above & beyond for his family as I'm sure your dad did, we can only share how amazing he was through us now. I often talk about my dad things he liked certain habits, or traditions. My tears also show how special he was & still is but you are right, life will never be the same. I am 36 from NJ. So if you ever need another person to listen & truly understand I'm here for I need that too. God bless.

Jun 14, 2014
I understand
by: Anonymous

I lost my father on January 14, 2013. He died suddenly from Sudden Cardiac Arrest. I was 47, and my children 14&12 at the time. While we were blessed to have had him in our lives, I think of all the wonderful things he has missed this past year. My children still cannot talk about it, and my mother is broken. My life goes on, and I have come to accept his death, but I will never be the same. I talked to him about everything. He was a great listener, great teacher, and a very sweet person. Our relationship was so special, and I will never have that again. I hope you find some comfort on this website. You will be in my thoughts, Barb

Jun 14, 2014
by: Miryana

Dear Kelly,I'm very sorry about the loss of your father, because ,,we're wearing the same shoes''.
My dear, beloved father passed away in February and I feel the same. Your story is almost identical to mine-my father was my mentor, my teacher, my best friend, a sorce of unconditional love and everything he had done in his life, he had done it for me and my brother.And now he's gone. I know that it is very difficult to cope with the pain because it is sometimes unbearable, especially when you see that the world still moves on, and your world doesn't fit together anymore, like a jigsaw without the most important piece.
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy because the fact that I won't speak to my father never again is killing me. Do whatever YOU think is right-cry, shout, be angry and be kind to yourself because this is your grief and you have to live on a daily basis. Even if we're worlds apart, my thoughts are with you because I know that grief is a huge burden that you have to carry very slowly. Miryana

Jun 14, 2014
Life Will Never Be the Same
by: Doreen UK

Kelly I know how you feel about losing your Dad and him never knowing his grandchildren and what becomes of their lives. I lost my husband to cancer 2yrs. ago and he will never get to know how precious his 2 grandchildren are who are 3yrs. and 5yrs. old. I have had such immense pleasure with them and they are adorable and I hate to be the one who gets to have them in my life. I have 3 adult children who lost their father and still struggling with the grief. I still can only get through one day at a time. But as you say Life will never be the same. You do need some support as this is the only way you can move forward better from your grief. I had good support at the beginning and this helped me so much. It is still a very lonely place to be. I am sorry for your loss.

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