lifes become comfortably num

by mark t parsons
(s/wales u.k)

hi ,
lost my dad ,last july . time has moved forward why am
still feeling like its a bad dream and havent woke up yet.
cant seem to focus ,on anything positive ,blank things out to survive, feel like bursting into tears to help me grieve
but nothing comes out ,like know one can hear me .

must stay strong for my nieces ,who are struggling to cope with out him, loads of questions i cant answer , dont know
how to anyway just get to upset when i think of things .
do i need help weired feeling feeling ok one minute ,and emotionally destroyed the next .

loads of things dad didnt tell me about before he died.
been sorting out his financial affairs which have been a nightmare to work out properly, i think why didnt he let me help him have i let him down was i a poor son to him , or couldnt he bring him self to tell me , got loads of unanswered
questions which i cant work out ,and cant rest till i find the answer why

one day at a time its going to have to be , hope i can survive
this emotional storm im going through. its giving quite an
endurance test though .

yours sincerly

marky pars

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Mar 14, 2012
Life Becomes Comfortably Numb
by: MissChris

Dear Marky,
I am so sorry to hear about your dad. It sounds like you were very close to him. You mentioned you can't cry. I know how you feel. Last year I lost my 2 sons and husband of 28 years. I couldn't get myself to cry for months. All my feelings were bottled up inside. What helped me was writing down my feelings. I write whatever comes to mind about my husband and sons. I try and write everyday. I type it on my computer and save it so I can go back and look at it. I also put the date on it. The writing will help relieve some of the stress. I also listened to sad songs and that would help me cry. Each night I have a ritual where I listen to music on YouTube and then type my feelings. I like your title "Live Becomes Comfortably Numb". Months ago I wrote that I wished I could become comfortably numb. Sadly, grieving takes time and it's a process we have to go through. It will get better in time. I know it has for me. Your in my prayers Marky.

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