like a mother to me
I've known my boyfriends mother for 11 years. She was my mother away from my real mother, who lives 6 hours away. She had been dealing with pain for years and just recently received a diagnosis of thoracic outlet syndrome. Early the next morning, on xmas eve, she died suddenly of a heart attack. We were all stunned because she was just given a clean bill of health by her cardiologist earlier this week. I feel bad because I am at my parents house for xmas and can't be there for my boyfriend and his family. Im still in shock. It all feels like a dream and Im going to wake up and everything will be fine. And every once in a while reality hits me and I panic and my chest feels like its being crushed. Im going home to stay with my boyfriends dad for a while and when I get there its really going to sink in.