I lost my brother/Friend over three yrs. ago. He shot himself twice in the head. When I got to him he was still alive but died in my arms. My mother died March 3rd, she refused help that would save her life. She told me she wanted to go. I have been in therapy for over three yrs. I have Post tramatic stress Disorder (PTSD). After 32 yrs. I am about to lose my job. These deaths have effected me or who I use to be. I can't deal with all the Drs. any more or all the pills. I wonder if they could do any better if this happened to them. I honestly feel it's all about the money to them. Any Body got any suggestions?