Mom...I just wanted you to know how much I missed you through the holidays. It was very difficult to not hear your voice. You are incredible and I miss you so much. I have a hole that I have never had before...You were my best fried...you were the one person I talked to everyday. You always had something beautiful to say....even with all your difficulties. I will treasure our time we had forever. I still want to call you...when the kids r sick or when I am sick or just to say good morning how are you. The only relief I have is knowing that you are not in pain anymore. That is my only comfort. I was reading on all the stages of grief before. I bounce around all of them. Back and Forth. I know you would find that funny. Seems when you left...everyone scattered...I am still sad a lot. My kids think I will always be sad. But if you think about it September was just the other day. Anyway, I hope you r reading this now.It is the closest thing to a conversation I have had with you since you left. I Love You so much momma....brother is safe too.
