I was sat having a bath at around 6pm on sunday 6th Feb 2011..I received a phone call from my brother to say that my mum had collapsed. To cut a long painful story short. My mums heart ruptured and she was pronounced dead at 6.06pm. I am spending my days ringing my dad (we live so far away from each other)both of us have had numerous health problems since mum died. I have lost count of the viruses and infections my dad and I have had. Right now getting over another one which has knocked me for six.
Although I am gobsmacked and so sad about my mum I am heartbroken for my dad. I am making plans to move closer to him and to be closer to my mum.
I am married to a lovely man and have two great daughters. I also foster two boys. I have good days or bad days there is no in between. I also go through periods where I feel like everything is surreal and I am living my life through a dream. This surreal and detached feeling is now worrying me although I am sure its normal and its what people describe as feeling detached and numb...I want so much to be the woman I was 7 months ago...I feel she has gone and I want so much for her to return.