Living a nightmare
I'm so lost right now I dont know what to do anymore. It feels like I'm living in hell each day I wake up. Within the past 10 months I've lost both grandparents, multiple pets and my mom, which has been most difficult as she and I were very very close. I'd consider her my best friend without a doubt. The grief of losing one loved one is hard enough for anyone to deal with. So how do you learn to live again when the whole family is gone all at once? I feel so lost and alone now, so many problems and so little help and understanding. Seems there's no solution for any of the headaches I'm left to take care of on my own. I don't want to end my life, I'm just 31y/o, but the pain of living each day with such losses just makes me want to "off myself" and hope that I can find my loved ones in an afterlife if possible. I try to tell myself that it's just a feeling and will pass, but having lived with depression for many years prior to these losses, I wonder if I'll ever regain any sense of self worth or love for life again at all. I truly feel for everyone that has lost loved ones. But without much support or family left to help soften the blows of these losses I have no idea how people keep going. Each day I wake with anxiety, knowing there's so much that needs to get done, yet feeling like I do I just seem to shut it all out and then nothing gets done. As I read others stories here I realize I'm not alone in this grief journey. My heart goes out to you all! Although life isn't fair, may we all find a way to make it thru the day, no matter how impossible it may seem. And have enough strength to keep breathing, in hopes that one day, the nightmare will end.