Living for love
by Jack Hammer
Met her on my first interview dine in at her cousins restaurant. Fell in deep love. 2 years went by as friends, 7 years after as partners, and now 6months apart. The excuses are hurtful and unforgettable. I now return to my only sanctuary where I began, alone and continuing my life. It's not easy, one day is different to the next. Yesterday is never today and tomorrow is never yesterday and today will never be easy. I lie in bed allot while my workload pile up as I struggle to get myself the strength and courage to do them. I have tried to move on and fight the suffering but it is just there like a pink elephant in the middle of the room looking at me asking me to acknowledge it, so I do. I am better then I was before but my mind seems to never feel normal as it once felt. She has been etched deep within the depths of my electrical currents running inside my heart beat. I meditate, prayer and chant mantras... It all seems to help but with such an unstable mind and hopeful thoughts of the reigniting of our union that may be hopelessly hopeful of me. I feel surreal and lost.