Loneliness is making me crazy
I am at 15 months now since I lost Barry. I am ok in a lot of important ways but the loneliness is about to overwhelm me. I am embarrassed to admit that I am just starved for male attention, which Barry lavished upon me throughout our marriage. This is causing me to think foolish things. My car has been in the shop for the past two weeks and the owner has been especially pleasant to me, showing me around his little shop, spending time to chat with me about his grandkids etc. Well in my lonely little mind I began to build this up into something more than just a nice person chatting with me. I wonder if my loneliness and starving for company I am setting myself up to look stupid. I had a similar experience with myself much earlier on when a much older man (we're talking 80 here) told me I was "so pretty" and fussed over me. I am thinking and behaving like a teenager over these really insignificant events. God protect me from making stupid moves. Has anyone else had these experiences? I am so embarrassed at myself.