Loosing my loving momma
(Anderson Mo USA)
I lost my momma January 30 2014 to a massive heart attack in the middle of the night.
I feel so guilty because I wasn't there to be with her.
I have been through so much this past year. February 15 I lost my dad to a 4 1/2 year battle.i have 5 sister. We were all there the last week of my dads life. We were there the night God called him home. We new on the 14th was going to be pretty much it. I got to say my goodby. In May my oldest sister was diagnosed with the same cancer that took my dad.as I said I lost my momma January 30th 2014, on January 31 I found out my 3 year old nephew has stage four cancer as my sister has stage four.
So now back to my mommy. I feel so bad I wasn't there there to hold her hand and just be with her as God called her home.
My momma was a very tough little lady. My dad was never around as we were growing up. My momma raised six girls on her own. She never brought a man into out home she did it all on her own. She had to have have the patience of Job and the strength of superman. We didn't have much. She made a HUGE garden during the summer and she canned everything for winter. She made a lot of our clothes for she didn't have the money to buy them. People would give her material and she always made one of us something.
I'm not saying we didn't have our ups and downs we did as all families do. No matter heat though even after we were all out of the house she was always on the other end of that phone when we needed her. For me that was often. I miss her so much I feel as if she took a part of my heart with her.
If it were not for God, my kids, grand kids my anxiety pills, an all the prayers I don't think I could have made it this far. I have depression anyway now I have clinical depression.
This is the hardest thing I have went through in my life so far. I cry all the time it just hurts so bad.