Losing a mommy at 4 years of age.
by Caitlyn E.
I was only 4 years old. my brother was at the age of 2. it was may 15,2003. the death of Allison Estes (felkner) I am now only 13 years old. i lost my mother to a murder by my father. my life is very hard. my friends and there mothers argue all the time. my friends will call me and tell me that they hate there mothers. i burst into tears because they have no idea what they are saying. without a mother being a teenage girl is very hard. and for them to say they hate there mom while they know i don't have one..hurts really bad. life without a mom and dad its a very depressing life. people say "ohh your a strong girl everything's gonna be okay" that's not true at all. everything is not okay!! if you lost your mom at a young age you would know exactly what i am talking about! people's words don't help at all. it just makes things worse.I wake up every morning depressed. people have no idea what i am going through. i know that if my mom was here she would just be suffering because of how badly my father abused her and that's the reason of her death. people tell me that i look like my mother. i just smile and say thanks but on the inside i am dying. life without a mother to give you advice, talk about boys, go places and hang out..sucks! i need the comfort of my mother. without her i don't want to live. its just not fair.:(