Losing Everything You Love -I've lost eveything I love my Grandfather, Girlfriend, Tom Cat, Molly Cat, Business & my Health in 2-1/2 years.
Losing Everything You Love -
I've lost eveything I love my Grandfather, Girlfriend, Tom Cat, Molly Cat, Business & my Health in 2-1/2 years.
It all started around March 2010 when my Grandad died after suffering from sugar diabetes. Shortly after in late March 2010 my girlfriend of 10 years walked out & left me, she was the love of my life.
I don't think she could support me in view of the 'hell' I was about to go through.
I had just taken over the 35 year old family business a few years earlier & turned the business around. When the recession took hold in 2010, the banks attacked my company demanding £800k($1.2million) personal guarantee for an overdraft facility. I refused to committe financial suicide so they shut the business down.
I subsequently had to lay off 150 people in Aug 2010. I was the biggest employer in my home town. The cause of the problem was one of the worlds largest oil companies refusing to honour their contract rates.
While I was going through the trauma in May 2010 I went away for a week to Tenerife to try & clear my thoughts.
I got back to find my Tom Cat had mysteriously disappeared, I spent months searching for him & never found him.
I had nearly secured another large contract with another major oil company, but was usurped at the last minute by a competitors insider trading.
On the 4th Aug 2010 I closed the business, I've been harassed ever since.
The day after I closed the business my dad had his prostrate cancer operation.
Shortly after this i was enroute to a law firm in a neighbouring city & was in a high speed car crash at 80MPH. As a passenger I walked out alive.
Later that month 28th Aug 2010, I ended up in a fight with the ex-girlfriends new boyfriend in a local pub, which resulted in me being thrown in jail for a night. Believe it or not I ended up making a documentary for the BBC but it has never been broadcast, for political reasons I think.
The stress was really starting to take it's toll.
As the next year rolled on I've had nothing but legal battles and I'm traumatized & exhausted.
Over this period I have been in hospital with heart pains, even though the ECG's said I was fine.
I have now developed chronic pain in my left arm, shoulder & left chest & heart. The pains won't stop, I think it's a broken heart.
At Christmas 12th Dec 2012 my only friend left a cat called Molly died and it's all my fault. A few days earlier she was crying & I was feeling really poorly.
So I gave a real firm kick up the bottom as I put her in the other room.
I may of caught her weak spot, I just don't know. I had just nursed her back to health a few years earlier after pancreatitis, when she nearly died.
I noticed her lose balance a day after the incident & rushed her to the Vets, to find she had kidney failure.
A few days later she was put to sleep.
This feels like the final straw she was all I had left, my cat. Nothing in my life over the last 3 years has gone right.
I have tried to avoid all contact with anyone & everything that I love, as everything seems to go wrong.
I don't think I've slept properly since Xmas 2009.
I wonn't have been paid now for 3 years in April 2013 and have lived off my savings.
My life feels as though it's over, Im a complete failure, I can't think clearly anymore. I have no self worth or esteem.
Can I ask anyone reading this to say a loving prayer for Molly & all those pets, friends & people suffering around the World.
I wouldn't want anyone to go through the pain & suffering of losing everything, pets, best friends & family.
I've always tried my best at everything but in the end I think I lost all hope & integrity after the constant intimidation.
Defending the truth & your principles can cost you your life.
When you've lost everything including hope what's left to lose.
I can only hope that love will heal all universal souls.