Losing John

by Lyn

It was the most heartbreaking experience of my life. He was a long time friend who I had recently started dating. After his wife passed and my husband and I divorced, it seemed natural for us to spend time together. We had grown very close and were planning a vacation this fall.

In April he started complaining about back pain. He had a job lifting heavy packages and a history of kidney stones..so I tried to convince him to see his doctor. Instead he went to an ER and was diagnosed with a back strain and given medication and also went to a chiropracter.

When he didn't get better I took him to an ER and this time he was admitted and diagnosed with a drug allergy. About 10 days later he collapsed and was taken to the hospital where he stayed for 3 weeks. It took that long to finally discover that he had brain cancer. He went home and died about 3 weeks after that.

Unfortunately I wasnt able to see him those last 3 weeks but I did spend lots of time with him in the hospital and I spoke to him after he got the cancer diagnosis. I pray that he remembered me telling him how much I loved him and that I would be with him if I was allowed by his children.

I miss him so much. There is a huge hole in my life and in my heart.

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Aug 23, 2011
Loosing John
by: M Mack


I'm sorry for your loss. Whatever the circumstances that you did not have him for the last 3 weeks of his life- know that he is still with you. When a loved one passes, they never really leave you completely. They are here, around you in spirit. Life takes us through many twists and turns along our path. You think all is well, then suddenly it hits you with another reality to deal with. Going through a divorce, reconnecting with John, and now loosing him are very traumatic for one to endure. You were fortunate to find one another even if only for a short time . You think you have a lifetime to build, then suddenly, a new reality. Come to this site for support and know you are never alone at any stage in your grieving. My best to you Lyn as you cope and go through the this very sad time.

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