Losing Larry last week is so hard to understand

by Penny Mejia
(Greenfield, CA)

Larry and me met over twenty years ago, we were actually together for the past two years. Unfortunately, on Wednesday, September 15, 2010 Larry died in our little humble home away from heaven. We were not married but oh he had asked me to marry him over and over, as a matter of fact we were planning on going to the court house and proceed from there. He died from unknown causes, I haven't been given a report yet, and am here at school trying to go on, just like everyone says to do.

I have heard so many people say "I am sorry for your loss" that I want to scream. Larry isn't lost, I know where he is at, he is in heaven looking down, as a matter of fact as I sit here typing away clouds that look like angels are passing by my window, I see him in the clouds and actually feel at peace. You see Larry, would come to school with me and was so very proud of my accomplishments and loved me unconditionally.

Last week he decided to jump on board and pursue a degree in Art. He was 49 years old and was a very patient, loving, kind man who loved children and animals. He was a movie buff and music buff, he had a funny sense of humor that tickled my funny bone all the time. Sure we had our ups and downs just like everyone else, but one thing that kept us together was pure unconditional love.

Larry leaves my children Kassandra and Kristian who he adored and was so proud of both of them. He was fortunate to have met the grandchildren Julian and Alexavier. He was also good friends with Jesse my son in law and my mother Maria. My brother Anthony and his girlfriend Rosemary,

Larry and me could have tackled the world, in our hearts we were married and committed to one another. He is truly missed and I am so glad that I got to be a part of his journey.

They say time heals, but I beg to differ, I think you just learn how to organize the pain and file away in different compartments.

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Sep 23, 2010
by: Jules

"Time heals" that's what they say - I don't think it does, as you say, you just organise things differently in your life - just when you think you are strong, something will come along, and it opens it all up again - then you have the tears, and the incredible sadness - but life goes on, things change, people move in and out of your life -

I am moving house, going to learn to live on my own - never really done it before - but early next year I intend to start traveling with my caravan, so I need to learn to be on my own.
Keep going - you will never forget your love, but you are wise enough to know that you can go on -
take care

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