Losing Mickey

by debbie
(south carolina)

We were married 32 wonderful years. Mickey was my best friend and only friend in life. He fought Bladder cancer for 19 months and at the age of 50, on July 15.2011 he lost his battle. Although I was his care giver he was also mine. So now Im left alone to try and deal with this. I have suffered from vertigo since 2002 and Mickey basically took care of me daily. From getting the groceries to taking me to the doctor, because I dont drive, so I am now stuck in this house all alone, with no one. Although I am glad he is not suffering in that horrible pain, I miss him so much and dont know how to go on. My facebook friends say it will get easier, but I just dont see that ever happening, when you loved someone so much and depended on them so much, how do you go on?

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Sep 21, 2011
by: Zoe

There is no equity in this thing, this cancer.
John went in the hospital on March 6, 2010, we were told on March 11, 2010 that he had pancreatic cancer, we would have six months, maybe a year, his kidneys shut down on March 14, 2010 he died March 21, 2010.
Did I want him to suffer for a long time to be with me, no, yes.. how do you answer that.
We do not want them gone, they are taken from us, our other half...
We do not want them in pain, we willingly take care of them, love them.. stay with them, but then they are in pain,....
There is no answer for this, there is no justice in what happens, there is only the unyielding tides of grief.
I can tell you now, the grief is different.
Come here when you need to, we are here, we understand and as always
One Breath, One step, One day at a time.

Sep 20, 2011
From Louisville
by: Eric

Yes Debbie it is hard to go on I know I lost my wife of 47+ years last OCT.16,2010 She was told on September 8,2010 that they thought they had got all of the cancer and things look good then one short month later. I put in the hospital so weak she couldn't walk. Yes you need to take one step,one breath,one day at a time but knowing he woudn't want to give up.

Sep 20, 2011
One step, One day
by: SUE


I to feel your pain, I lost my Allen 5-11-11, he was diagnosed on 2-15..I didn't have time, I do drive, but there will be a time when you will say enough is enough and make the right decision to go on...we have to...because it is not our time..and all you can do is take one step one day...thats all...there are days when I cry so hard my chest will hurt and I will have dry heaves...and I don't what to be that...I want Allen to look down on me and say that's my Sue...so I keep going...

God Bless you

Panama City Beach FL

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