We were married 32 wonderful years. Mickey was my best friend and only friend in life. He fought Bladder cancer for 19 months and at the age of 50, on July 15.2011 he lost his battle. Although I was his care giver he was also mine. So now Im left alone to try and deal with this. I have suffered from vertigo since 2002 and Mickey basically took care of me daily. From getting the groceries to taking me to the doctor, because I dont drive, so I am now stuck in this house all alone, with no one. Although I am glad he is not suffering in that horrible pain, I miss him so much and dont know how to go on. My facebook friends say it will get easier, but I just dont see that ever happening, when you loved someone so much and depended on them so much, how do you go on?