Losing Mom, my best Friend
by Star Vaughn
(Bulls Gap, TN)
I lost my Mom 2 weeks ago, January 12, 2010 at 5:30 a.m., after fighting a battle for 5 months that began from contracting staph infection. The infection settled on a heart valve and she could never recover and get strong enough to have the valve replaced she so desperately needed.
She was the best Mom and friend a person could have. I did not realize just how much she meant to me til now that she's no longer there. I have such a hole inside me, wonder if it will ever heal. I lived right beside her and my Dad and it's so hard knowing she is no longer there.
I am starting to be angry, I didn't figure I would have anger so soon. Actually I have so many feelings. The days are so gloomy and gray, right now I feel like there will never be anymore joy, anything to look forward to. But this makes me feel guilty, as I have a 19 year old daughter that I love dearly. And I still have Dad. But nothing is the same and never will be again.