Losing Mom, my best Friend

by Star Vaughn
(Bulls Gap, TN)

I lost my Mom 2 weeks ago, January 12, 2010 at 5:30 a.m., after fighting a battle for 5 months that began from contracting staph infection. The infection settled on a heart valve and she could never recover and get strong enough to have the valve replaced she so desperately needed.

She was the best Mom and friend a person could have. I did not realize just how much she meant to me til now that she's no longer there. I have such a hole inside me, wonder if it will ever heal. I lived right beside her and my Dad and it's so hard knowing she is no longer there.

I am starting to be angry, I didn't figure I would have anger so soon. Actually I have so many feelings. The days are so gloomy and gray, right now I feel like there will never be anymore joy, anything to look forward to. But this makes me feel guilty, as I have a 19 year old daughter that I love dearly. And I still have Dad. But nothing is the same and never will be again.

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Apr 20, 2010
Lost my mom as well , October 8, 2008
by: Anonymous

My mom had open heart surgery one year before she died, After a few months went by, she ended up with two bacterial endocarditis infections in her new mitral valve. The second infection was resistant to any antibiotic treatment and just like your mom, was too sick to have any surgical intervention, and she died within three weeks.I am finding it very hard to move on because she went through so much and was suppose to add years to her young life. She was only 69. I am mad at all her doctors to this day, almost one and a half years later. I hope you find peace. God Bless You! I know your pain. Debbie

Jan 29, 2010
Losing Parents
by: Anonymous

I lost my Mom/best friend on March 9 2008. She fought cancer and won, but kidney failure took her life. I know she is at peace with the Lord and I will see her again. But I miss her terribly and feel such a hole in my heart.

Just 5 weeks after my Mom passed, my Dad passed after a long struggle with Alzheimer's. He never knew about my Mom. He was the best Dad in the world and always did anything he could to help others. Never expecting anyting in return.

I guess it was just too much for my Mom to watch my Dad deteriorate and Dad never had to grieve over losing Mom. So now they are together again, with God. To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.

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