Only 3 weeks today since I lost my husband of 35 years, my constant companion and best friend. Raymond passed away following a brief battle with cancer that traveled to his lungs. I looked after him at home and we believed so completely for his healing. In his last days he became so very tired and began to communicate a desire to 'go home'.He passed away after 2 days in hospital when his lungs finally failed. The people he loved the most were all at his side. I feel as though I am at the very beginning of a very lonely scary journey.
Let me just say you have come to the right place. There is nothing more healing than expressing your feelings and receiving heart felt comments from wonderful people who are going through the same grief. To see my husband's lifeless body on his last day stopped my world. I felt as if I moved in slow motion on auto pilot for the next 60 days. We were married for 37 years. I was 19 when I met my husband. How do you go on after so many years with the same man? It isn't easy. I have not had one day where I haven't cried for him. It's been 5 1/2 months for me. I miss him so much it nauseates me most days. I know I have to go on. Everyone here tells me it gets better. I have learned to take things just one day at a time. I thought about possibly facing another 30 years without my husband and would go into full blown anxiety attacks. One breath, one step......one day at a time. We are all here for you. Come here and post as often as you need to. God's blessings.
Your loved one by: Anonymous
My heart goes out to you but know that you are not alone. There are many of us out here who feel alone who have lost someone. Wandering around an empty house, looking at a phone that won't ring, thinking of them. It is so painful but please know that you are in my prayers. Even though we don't know each other.
