Losing my mum , losing my friend

by Karine Mazuy
(Ashford Kent )

Dear all,

I lost my mum in december and have experienced intense grief since, some days are worse than others, I am at utter loss without her, I looked after her for 2 years when she was diagnosed with Alzheimer ... so i have the feeling I lost her twice.

This is the hardest experience, I have lost my dad 12 years ago and found myself becoming increasingly distressed at the thought of not having no parents left.

Some days, I am ok and some other days, it hit me so hard I found myself "dragged into a black hole" without any hope of finding happiness again.
You are never prepared for the death of a loved one, I cherish the memory, I am so scared of not remembering her voice, her laugh ...

All i know is that you pay the price of grief for loving somebody so much.


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Aug 12, 2010
by: Gwen

Karine, Losing our moms is one of life's hardest knocks. Even tho we know the day will come, it still hurts soooo deep, that at times the hurt and pain almost feels physical. I watched my mom being 'eaten' by cancer last year. She went from 60kgs to 39kgs. I have put my story here so I wont repeat it. We are a band of grieving children (even if we are grandparents already.), who have lost the person who gave us life. We WILL get through this and we will see the things that tears are hiding from us, again. And when one of us says 'chin up, just for today, lets smile for our moms...' it'll be acceptable cos we know what it's like losing a mama.....

Jul 22, 2010
Loss of mother
by: Brenda

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my mother when I was 15 so I know the grief you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Jul 22, 2010
Loosing them twice
by: HH

I know what you mean by losing them twice. Having mother, father and husband with illnesses before their death. Having good days and bad is the roller coaster we all ride. But on the o.k days don't work yourself so hard just to get through the day. Stop, go outside or for a ride and see some simple joys. Lots of dragonflys this year, let them circle around you look at the color of their wings and how very delicate they are. Look at the clouds in the sky, watch it change. Find a sunset, take a camera. Try to take the o.k days and let it give you some relief from grief. All my best wishes to you from all of us...HH

Jul 22, 2010
thinking of you
by: Kay australia

Dear Karine
I am thinking of you and sending healing thoughts your way. I know just how you feel when you say paying the price for loving someone too much. My son was killed in May this year. My heart is breaking, I cry every day. I adored him so much. At times the pain gets so bad that I can't function....I am so sorry about your mum and dad sweetheart. Just know that you are in my thoughts .love xxx

Jul 22, 2010
I am so sorry
by: brittany

i know how it feels and i lost my dad when i was 3 or 4 but i didn't get to know him that much, he had cancer and i wish he was here. All we can do is thank of the happy times i know its hard it hurts me

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