Loss of my 2 babies.
1st BABY Stillborn - In 2010 my daughter was due,I went for my last check up on Monday & Wednesday was my c-section,when I went for my check up,doctor found no heartbeat,my daughter was still born,I carried her for all those months,had everything prepared,we were so excited,but all our dreams were shattered. Doctor performed the c-section & my baby. My girl was brought to me. She was so beautiful,thick black hair,fully developed,weighing 3.5kg,it was as if she was sleeping & I just needed to breathe life into her. She was my first. We cremated her,the hardest thing my husband & d to do. Two years later I gave birth to a beautiful,healthy baby boy who brought so much joy to our lives. He made our sorrow so much better & still is.
2nd BABY - My son was born on the 23 August at 33 weeks,he was rushed to icu being premature & his lungs were not ready enough for the outside world. He was doing fine until the evening when his heart was beating 300 beats,the cardiologist was called in & he gave him some meds & his heart was fine. The next morning it started again & his muscles grew week,he passed away with my husband & right there beside him,all we wanted to know is WHY the second time Lord WHY,it was so painful & still is,he was so beautiful weighing 2.1kg,we had so much excitement,so much dreams of having 2 sons. We cremated him,it was so hard,for both my babies I had to have a c-section & the pain of having the operation plus no baby is the worse pain ever. Losing our 2 babies was the worst pain my husband & had to endure,we'v been through so much together but we know GODS ways are not ours,we know that we will see them oneday & we'll all be a family again. My babies are in no more pain & they rejoicing in heaven. We have to run this race called life,&but we thank God for our son that is such a blessing & makes us laugh all the time,he doesn't give us time to think. We don't know if God has plans for us to have more kids but for now,one day at a time. To mothers & fathers that lost babies,always know that you must trust God no matter what & never ask questions,one day we will know why all this has happened,we can make plans but God determines our steps.