Loss of my Best Friend
I lost my best friend on Jan 31,2010. We met in Sept of 2008 and we instantly fell in love. We both had bad marriages and we finally found each other. Kevin made me feel loved and warm and secure.
I had made a promise to myself that I would never fall in love again after a bad 27 year marriage. But after meeting Kevin and letting him into my heart, I knew what real love was like. He would write poems and email them to me at work. He would have romantic dinners ready for me when I got home. And countless nights of holding each other and falling asleep.
But on Jan 8, 2010 he got up with a bruise on the calf of his right leg and it is was swollen twice the size it should be. We took him to the hospital and they said he had a blood vein to bust.
Kevin needed a liver transplant and his blood wasn't clotting; they did surgery on his leg on that Sunday and he was doing good until that Thursday and he got pneumonia and ended up in ICU.
Then on Jan 30, 2010 we took him off the ventilator and he lasted 5 hours and he died twice before he finally went to be with the Lord.
I have never had such pain in all of my life. I have lost both of my parents and that grief is nothing compared to what I am going through now.
I come home from work and he isn't there. Going to bed at night is the hardest of them all. And Valentine's day we were suppose to have been married. So it has been real hard the past couple of weeks. I just don't know how to go on without him in my life.