loss of my boyfriend

by T

I lost my boyfriend all of a sudden, he got intoxicated with some gases from a defect boiler
he was the one to die from this the rest didn't, it was on February 9, 2014... i found out from his cousin,
he was working in France and we didn't see each other for long time nearly a year. I feel so sad and
upset, even angry he was my hope, my love, I'm feeling so lonely right now..horribly lonely and don't know how
to cope with this pain i feel inside. Every morning i open my eyes the first thought is that he's gone
and i just can't, i feel so much pain in my chest. I can't eat properly, i lost weight, i take some
pills to be able to sleep...and pass the days crying, grieving and can't find my place. I have no friends by my side
my aunt supports me but tells me not to cry anymore, that disturbs me, i feel like crying and I'm crying...
I'm listening the song 'I cried for you' and cry...i can't imagine someone else by my side...and
one of the most terrible things is that he was the only son to his mother..poor mother, i can't imagine
what she is feeling now.life is so unfair :'( I'm feeling so bad ...so bad, i miss him, his messages, his support...everything,,I'm emotionally down & so exhausted

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Feb 18, 2014
loss of my boyfriend
by: Doreen UK

T I am sorry for your loss of your boyfriend to an untimely death. It is early days and everything you are going through right now is RAW GRIEF. Don't listen to anyone who tells you not to cry. CRYING is the best part of grief. It is also healthy to cry and get the pain out of your system. Your crying will get less over time.
This is the worst experience a person could go through. To lose someone so close feels as if your world has blown up.
I lost my husband of 44yrs. to cancer 21 months ago and I still feel the awful sadness still of losing him. Life is so lonely without him.
Just like you my husband travelled all over the world with his job, and I was always worrying about his safety travelling, and his safety on the job. He spent so much time away working and he was about to retire and be at home more and instead he dies of cancer. Life is so unfair. Life now feels like some sort of punishment, but this is the nature of grief. The best way forward is TAKING ONE DAY AT A TIME. This is how I got through my grief. You are still so very young so in time you will be able to move forward and pick up the pieces of your life again. But this will take time. If you find yourself struggling you may benefit from seeing a grief counsellor. It does help.

Feb 17, 2014
deep sympathy
by: Lawrence

The only advice I can give you is to cry and cry until you feel empty of tears but more will come, ignore anyone who tells you differently, crying is natures way of easing your pain,and as time passes you will find this is so.
It is just over a week since you heard; you must be in such agonizing grief.
You have suffered a grievous heart breaking loss and my heart goes out to you as someone who is also in overwhelming agony at losing a beloved sweetheart and wife.
You have joined a web site of people from all over the world that have one thing in common, the devastation of losing the one person they loved more than life itself, so you can see you are in the company of fellow mourners.
Read all the contributions, it will help you as it has with many who are suffering, it certainly helped me.
You are obviously a young lady with all your life ahead of you so all I can suggest is as soon as the tears and anguish lessen, (and that may take a good while), do what your boyfriend would have wanted, wipe your eyes, take the first few faltering steps to normality, and get on with your life.
He will always be in your heart.
You have everybody’s sympathy.

Feb 16, 2014
by: dianne

I felt so sad when I read Hefner column what you said you feel is normal you're not going mad I felt the same exactly he's still my 1st thought each day and each nite he was my eldest son and I loved him to bits its nearly 7 months for me and not a day has gone that he hasn't been my 1st thought when I wake and my last at nite .your grief is new mine has taken its toll the emotions you're going threw are exactly the same as mine were just take a day at a time don't stop crying until you're ready I cried all my tears away but some days still they return again don't feel alone we all share the emotions you feel here it will in time the aching in your heart will lessen and your memories and love you feel will remain a big hug to you and my thoughts are with you x

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