Loss of my brother
I lost my brother to suicide Father's Day. I posted earlier on this and the immense grief I am feeling. It has been 4 weeks and I am finding it so hard to get back into the swing of things. I am a Realtor and I have to be motivated to sell homes or be upbeat for my clients. I am slowly trying to get back on track, but I feel so numb or find it hard to be excited for anything, however I am trying my best to put on a good face.
It seems people dont want to talk about it anymore except for my sister and I( we were very close to our brother). It appears I have to find private time to call her so that we can grieve together while everyone around me thinks I should be fine by now.
My mother is also dying now and I know soon I will have to deal with her death which will be so hard.
My question is how does one grieve over the tragic loss of their beloved brother while preparing themselves for the loss of our beloved mother? I know God will only give me what I can handle, but this seems to be so hard to figure out.
Before my brother died, I had a spirit and was so active and loved to run and since he passed away, I find no motivation to get out and run or do any type of excersise. I just do what I have to do to stay busy, but when I am alone with my thoughts, I grieve so bad for my brother and invision those final moments when he put that gun to his head and now I have my mom slowly dying and it pains me to see the life slipping our of her.
Oh I wish this pain would go away:(