loss of my dad to suicide at 8 yrs old
Growing up I didn't have the easiest experience. My Dad was emotionally and physically abusive to my mom. He was an alcoholic and very addicted to drugs. After 14 yrs of marriage my mom divorced him and moved my sister and I away 12 hrs away. My dad had a very hard time being so far away from us and especially once my mom remarried a few years later. He committed suicide by over dosing on medication. That completely changed our lives. I always felt like I needed to be strong and could never show the pain I felt so my mom wouldn't hurt anymore. I was tired of seeing my mom in pain. This has been a long and hard experience that I wouldn't wish on anyone. I have a lot of trust and abandonment issues and a lot of effects of the suicide still remain. I'm an adult now and am trying to learn a new and better way to raise my children. But still have so much pain inside.