Loss of my eldest brother
I unexpectedly lost my big brother yesterday at the young age of 58. I had lost touch with him these last few years, and didn't know the extent of his drinking. He got diabetes, but would not go to the doctor's. I am told he looked like a very frail old man, who couldn't look after himself.
I feel shocked and very saddned by this, as I only learnt before Christmas that he was ill. I also feel guilt, as I should have made more effort to keep in touch