Loss of my loving son Brandon 21, due to heart attack

by Cathy

October 18th 2011- The darkest day of my life. On October 17th 2011 my son was admitted to the hospital for severe pain in the stomach, was diagonised for acute pancreatitis he was on medications and on 18th at around 1.45 A.M. he died of a massive heart attack in the toilet. It was really shocking, i never in my wildest dreams thought that this would happen to my son , that he would go before me. I begged the doctor to do something there was nothing he could do, he was already gone. I just cannot believe my baby is no more. Each day without him is so painful, looking at his room, his things. I just wish i could see my baby one more time to hug him, i didnt know he would go like this so suddenly. sometimes it feels like a bad dream and that he will come back. I feel like going near my son he was my eldest and my beloved, he just got into bad company at a young age .People dont understand they say so many things which hurt so much,no one can understand the pain, only those who have gone through it can. I dont know if the pain of losing him will ever end.

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May 30, 2012
Lossing my son Marty after dr said it was a routine surgery
by: Anonymous

Cathy, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my son Marty on January 19th, 2010 after the cardiovascular surgeon convinced him he need a aortic valve replacement. A few hours after surgery Marty suffered a stroke and died 14 days later. The dr and hospital offered no compassion or no answers to our many questions. The dr immediately left and went some where else to practice. The administration at the hospital called me and told me he was no longer practicing there but had relocated. If my son had been killed in an airplane or in an accident some other way, there would be investigations and answers, but hospitals and dr are protected. If Marty had not walked into that hospital he would be here with me today. A nurse in the hospital told me I would never find peace. She is right - I will never. Our lives are upside down and we are devastated. I miss Marty and long for him every minute of everyday. I will never be okay and the pain of Mary dying is unbearable. There were so many injustices that have happened. I don't care how horrible my life is - but Marty should be here enjoying his.

Feb 15, 2012
by: Bee-lieve ( Hope)

I completely understand how you feel. Your words are exactly what are in my heart. I lost my son Rick Jan 2,2012. He died at 41 from complications of juvenile (type 1) diabetes. He was also my oldest and also my best friend. I still cant believe it! How can this be? I keep asking myself how can I go one. How am I suppose to go on with life with out seeing him? He was such a kind person and I miss him so much. We must take life one day at a time and if that seems impossible, one minute at a time. You will be in my prayers.

Feb 14, 2012
I understand
by: carol,seans mom

Cathy, My son Sean was 24. He went to bed one day like any other normal day and did not wake up for work. They talked about a blood clot that went threw his body and landed on his heart. He suffered three heart attacks that night and like Catherine who also commented I lost my child, my son Sean on November 15,2011. He was the oldest of three children and my only son. When you are just going on living and this strikes so sudden it is just unbelievable. How do these things happen? It was three months ago today on the fourteenth that I feel I lost him. We spent 46 hours straight up with him while he fought on life support and lost the battle. The ICU was filled with family. It is still unbelievable to me. I had him at 24 so he was with me half my life. I am devastated and sick each and every day. How awful any of us are going threw this pain. I hope we all find peace some day.

Feb 13, 2012
I Understand your pain
by: Christine

I too lost my son this year in June 2011. He died of a pulmanary embolism, just like Brandon it was so sudden and unexpected!! It's like haveing the world pulled out from under you! It's been 8 months and the pain is still so bad! I keep busy and try to think about all the happy memories! He was my only child and the joy of my life! You do find ways to get thru the days, but I always feel like I'm just one sad thought away from a meltdown! I have a few friends who have lost children and it does help to talk to them! They are the only ones who can truly know what you are feeling! It's a loss like no other!May God Bless you and comfort you. Also know that you are not alone and there are others who truly know the loss you are feeling!

Feb 13, 2012
by: Anonymous

Your post made me cry, who could imagine a heart attack at 21? I just lost my 3 year old grandson to pneumonia which never should of happened. I agree people can say some of the stupidist things that hurt so bad. I wish I had the words or way to comfort you but, there are no words. All I can say is cherish your memories of your son and try to be strong for your other children but, do all the grieving you need too and don't let anyone tell you to get over it.

Feb 13, 2012
Loving Son
by: Catherine K

Your post about dear Brandon really struck me because I lost my son Stephen on October 17th 1997. It is a long time but I still think of him all the time and say "goodnight" to him every night. Now I have lost a second child, Stephanie on November 15th 2011. The pain is unbearable of now having lost two children. In time it will get better but we have to go through these awful feelings of hopelessness before coming out the other side. I remember this from the first time so I can relate to you as no other person can who has not lost a child and it happening so suddenly was truly heartbreaking for you. Just try to have faith that he is in Heaven now and in good hands.
Who knows why these terrible things happen to us but try not to brood too much alone but cry to your friends and family to get it all out.
I try to take my own advice but I know how hard it is.
I will think of you and pray that little by little, it will get easier.
Love and God bless. Catherine

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