Lost 4 family members in 12 months
by Michelle Yarbrough
Last year my cousin was diagnosed with cancer. She was only in her early 50's and we were all devastated. She was very sick so she did not live long and within four months she passed away. It was on my daughter's 9th birthday. Two months later my uncle had a stroke while at home alone. He was paralyzed on his left side. He slipped into a coma and my family had to decide to take him off of life support. We could not afford a funeral so he was cremated. This was right before Christmas and after Thanksgiving. We were all so shocked and devastated. Two months later my other uncle on the other side of the family fell in his home it wasn't sure what exactly happened if he had a stroke or what but then he also slipped into a coma and had to be removed from life support. This was on my birthday that he was taken off and passed away. He was my favorite uncle. I just fell apart at this point. I hadn't even gotten over my cousin or other uncle dying and now my favorite uncle that i was so close to was gone too. Just last week On July 2 one year exactly from the date my cousin died I got a phone call from my grandmother telling me that my cousin who was only 31 years old was in a highway work accident. A asphalt truck had backed over him when he was bending down to pick up a sign. I couldn't believe it and I am still in shock and disbelief. It's like I don't want to believe this is real and all of these people who were so wonderful and I loved so much are gone now. Today I had a huge panic attack while driving because two semis flew up behind me. I am in constant worry about who is next in my family and is something going to happen to me or my kids. My family has a history of tragedy and its all I can think about now. I have to see a dr. to get control of my anxiety and somehow I have to get through this grieving process but I don't know where to start. So many deaths in a short time is too much to process and it puts you in complete shock. Please if anyone has any ideas or ways I can heal please let me know and pray for me and my family thank you.