lost and detached
Hello, I lost my husband of 15 years on Jan. 10, 2014. He was diagnosed with metastatic melanoma in Nov. 2010. Treatments worked the first 2 yrs. 3rd year it started spreading. In and out of the hospital December & Jan. Into hospice on a Wed. Talking eating alert. Thursday declining he passed on Friday at the age of 39. I am 41 yrs old. We loved him dearly however the last years were a real struggle. We have 11 year old son, 15 yr old daughter & 20 yr old daughter. I am left alone trying to be the best mother to my kids at which I am failing. I am very detached it seems to everyone including my kids. Everyday is a struggle for me but I get up and do the best I can. I never wanted to do this lone. I miss him dearly. He has a birthday coming up Oct. 3rd. Will it ever get easier? Sincerely, Detached.