lost and so alone
I sit here wondering if I am meant to grow old alone?
I know longer date the most wonderful woman I think I will ever have the pleasure of knowing.
Unfortunately she is so emotionally damaged from a prior relationship that she can longer find love or trust another man.
She didn't think she would hit the wall emotionally with me like she has in other relationships since her divorce..but she did.
She was always honest with me, and I guess I always new this could happen, but I had hoped that this time would be different for her.
My fear is that she will continue this pattern..despite the fact she has sought professional help..she doesn't seem to be getting better.
If only you could know her..you would see how amazing she is..She fears she is doomed to grow old alone due to her bruised heart.
Right now I feel lost..we had made plans for a future together..
Not only do I wish for the day that I recover from this..but I pray that she finds what she is looking for.
I just can't face the fact that I must once again at some point down the road try to find my elusive "soul mate".
Not sure if can trust anymore either..