'lost husband of 25 years
me and my husband were soul mates from the minute we met, it was like cupid's arrow hit both of us at the same time, he died from prostate cancer and i became his caregiver. i loved him so much, he gave me so much joy in my life and i am very lost without him. i do have some good days but most of my days i just want to sleep and eat and not think, hurts to much to think. feel like i really don't want to go on but am forced to because of pets and family obligations. i want to be with him so bad, and it usually hurts so bad. it seems to be a whole different life without a partner to share it with. i have been with a life parnter since 12 years of age so this is all new business for me. thank god, i am handy and can fix stuff which alot of my girlfriends can't do. at this point i really don't know how to get myself out of this rut. i lost him on february 21, 2012.