Lost husband of 44 years in 2013
I cared for my husband for a year and a half. He went to hospice last two months of his life as I could no longer lift him out of bed. I lost 40 lbs in the last year. I fell so deeply in love with him while he was so ill. I think it's a way of wanting to let them go and not stay in so much pain any longer.
I have felt so terrible since he passed. I have gained weight, but have such bad body pains. My doctor makes light of it, but if feel like I am just waiting here now until it's my time. Wondering the whole time what it is I will end up with!,