by Tammy Fessenden
James Luther Fessenden The Love of My Life
As I sit here alone thinking of you,
And all of the thing's that we use to do,
I sit here and wonder how it could be,
That you're no longer here with me.
That day when I left you I had bad a bad feeling inside,
And now I won't see you for a very long time;
But how was I suppose to know,
How much I really needed you so?
Our relationship started out so strong,
But somehow, somewhere thing's went wrong;
So for now all I can do,
Is just sit here and write this for you.
Maybe our love wasn't strong enough,
To stand the test of time;
I guess you just weren't tough enough,
And now I must survive.
We had a special love they'd say,
One that just grows and won't fade away;
But they were wrong and now you have gone,
Gone far away.
We had so much and yet so little,
I guess we really didn't know each other;
It's really quite sad, all those wasted years,
Now three years later, still so many tears.
The years that we wasted, not taking the time,
The time to find the people inside;
What we really needed, was never defined,
Now it's all locked up inside of my mind.
I think of you so often in my day to day life,
Especially when I look into our children's eyes;
I see their pain buried deep down inside,
In the same place I've tried to bury mine.
Why did you have to leave us this way,
With so many questions and things left to say,
I often wonder will it ever go away,
All the pain I feel in my heart today.
Will I ever forgive you,
I can't honestly say,
What gave you the right,
To take your life that day.
We will love you forever;
But won't understand,
Because suicide is never
A part of the plan.
With Love Always,
Your Wife And Children;
Tammy, Nicholas And Brittany Fessenden
July 31 1997