lost my best friend, my mom, my happiness on 31st dec, 2010.

by Tiffany
(colorado springs,colorado.)

i am 15 years of age and i lost my mum on 31st dec 2010. The beginning of this year 2011 has been nothing but hell for my brothers, my dad and i. i feel so lost, my mum was my best friend, she meant the whole world to me. i always believed that my mum would see me get married to the Man of my dreams and also get to hold her grandchildren in her arms, but i guess she never lived to see that day. i feel so sad and alone, i cannot imagine my future without her. she always gave me advice and she always talked about the kind of man she would want me to marry in the future and also, she always talked about my wedding day, how glamorous she wanted it to be and how happy she would be when she sees me walking down the aisle with my father. oh, God why? I wanted to die the moment i heard she was dead, she went to the hospital with my dad and never came back, the only thing my dad was holding when he came back from the hospital was her hand bag. My mum is a sickler, she was diagnosed with sickle cell, that is what killed her. Dont be surprised if i tell u my mum died because she was having pains all over her body and she could not breath. the next morning exactly 5:00am, she was pronounced dead!!! we were planning to celebrate new years eve the day she died, all the foods and decorations she made before she died, that was the worse day of my life!!! LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!!!!!!! i miss you mummy, i will never forget you. i promise to tell my kids in the future, what a lovely mother you are, and caring, loving grandmother you would have been to them, if only you had more years on this earth. will love you forever!!!! Thanks to all those who took their time to read this.

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Mar 21, 2013
I have too lost my mom dear :( But we have to be brave, n I know u r brave dear
by: Ashmin

Hi Tiffany, I really feel sad for your mom.. I have too lost my mom recently on February 1, 2013. I got married on November 4, 2013 n my mom died after 3 months from my marriage because of Cancer. She was suffering with Cancer; she was struggling since 1 and a half year from the pain of Cancer n her only wish was to see her daughter's marriage.. n see after 3 months of my marriage she died.. I m too really very upset n I m not able to get out of it.
I know dear that your mom should have seen your marriage, but its not in our hands. Everything is in the hands of God. You have to become brave, as your mom also wanted you to be happy always.. So, please take care of yourself and your dad and your sibling(s) too. And, never feel alone..
God bless you, take care..

Dec 27, 2011
by: Tiffany

Thank you soo much, this means a lot to me, thanks a lot for your advice, May God bless you. Thanks again

Dec 26, 2011
It's hard
by: Karen

Oh dear Tiffany. As much as I want to reach out to you and say something that will help I know this is the worst tragedy ever and nothing anyone can say will help. Your mom left you a wonderful legacy of love and strength, courage, and determination, understanding and wisdom and a belief in yourself. Know that she has become your own special angel as she watches out for you and your family. I know this is hard for you. Your mom will strengthen you each day as she continues to love you and look out for you.

Nov 21, 2011
Thank You.
by: Tiffany

Thank you all soo much, for trying to make me feel better, it means a lot to me. Thanks once again, and i promise to keep what you have all told me in mind. God bless you guys.

Nov 21, 2011
My heart goes out to you.
by: Sue

Hello Tiffany,
I am so sad for you. losing your Mum is the very worst thing that can happen in your life I know.
Allow yourself to feel every emotion - anger, pain, grief, longing, regret - and one day,I promise you, the emotion you will feel is gladness - that you were lucky enough to have her as your wonderful Mom and that your memories of her will last forever in your heart. No-one can take the memories away from you and she is so close to you Tiffany, vibrating at just one frequency away - let your heart be still and listen for her voice - you will hear her telling you how much she loves you and will always love you.
Don't try and be strong yet. She deserves to be cried for.
Love Sue x

Nov 21, 2011
Mom's Love is Forever
by: Anonymous

Please trust me honey when I tell you your mom will see you married to the man of your dreams. You are her daughter and she trained you well. She left you with a lifetime of her experience and love. She loves you and always will. You can't see her, you can't touch her but close your eyes and imagine her next to you. She's there.
It's so sad to lose our loved ones. My husband died almost one year ago. The holidays coming seem so empty without him.
When he passed I wrote Christmas letters to both of my children. I told them that what we all have to do is live our lives he best we can and make their dad proud. That is what you have to do. The ache in your heart is overwhelming at times. Your mom would want you to go on with your life and be happy.
As much as you are hurting your dad is probably hurting twice as much. He lost his partner-the person he chose to spend the rest of his life with. Be there for him and make him proud too. He needs you more than ever. You are a mini version of his life's love.
Talk to your mom Tiffany. Write to her and pour out your heart and soul. And keep coming to this web site to let us know how you are doing. We care. We really do. We have all lost loved ones and have had our hearts torn out.
God bless you and your family. Happy Thanksgiving sweet girl.

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