Lost my Dad 1 Year Ago
I lost my father exactly an year ago to Cancer. He was to retire from work and perhaps enjoy retirement but cruelly Cancer stuck him and he did not live long since being diagnosed.
I miss my dad and am grieving the last few days of his life which were cruel. I have trouble going to sleep. Am trying to find a way to shut my mind off the painful last few days but its not easy. I am sorry to not have been of better help during that difficult time. Maybe we should have said no to chemotherapy. Maybe we could have tried something else. I sometimes can't accept this loss. It's as though a part of my soul is gone.
I am also particularly upset with a lack of sensitivity among people 'close' to me. They seem to act as though loosing my dad is ok and that I need to move on. Even my wife took a holiday after my father's passed away and left me alone to grieve. I suppose moving on for me has not been easy one bit.
Death is painful, especially when it happens to someone dear to you. I badly miss him & his support through difficult times. This time around, am alone during the hard & harsh time. I am now feeling lonely, in a state of grief and flux - not sure what my priorities in life are. I miss you dad (appa)...if you can feel or hear me somewhere! You were truly a great father!