Lost my dad at 58. Daddy's girl 37

It has been 6 long days. My father was not feeling well wouldn't eat very little to drink for a week. I went to check on him and he refused to go to Hospital, 911 refused
to take him cause he said no, but could not answer all the question right. The next day we went back in am and begged him to go willing and he finally said yes as he was getting ready he started having chest pain so called 911 again and they took him.After testing he was diagnosis with Renal failure and his blood pressure would not stay up enough to get the port for dialysis, so there was nothing else they could do and told him he would pass by end of the weekend.I said I wanted to take him home at first they said no than I demanded it. They called Hospice at 10:30 am by 1 pm they had a bed and oxygen at his house. They told us they did not know if he would make the trip I said we need to try cause he said he did not want to die in a hospital, by 2pm we had him home. All of his kids and grandkids spent the night he past next morning at 1030. I have to say I am very pleased in Hospice they worked so fast to make my dad last wish to be possible. We had him cremated and a memory service at my aunt house which was about his life not his death. I am here at the Hospital first time without him writing this while my mom is in surgery that we could not postpone. This has been a terrible week. I feel so numb inside. My mom has been staying with me and does not want to go back to their house my sister is moving in their house. I don't know if my mom will be able to grief totally or she just wants to move on.I am Daddy's girl spoke with him everyday on the phone. He was very close to my husband and boys I just don't know what to do without him.