Lost my Dad Suddenly From Heart Attack
I'm 22 years old and lost my dad on May 14th, 2014 to a sudden heart attack. He was only 57 years old. His death left my 54 year old Mom a widow. My dad was the seemingly healthy one and when I got the life altering phone call at 10:45 pm on that day, I thought I heard wrong when they said, "your father passed away this evening". I didn't sleep that entire night and felt completely helpless since my husband and I moved to Malibu, California for him to attend the University, and all of my family was back home in Washington state. I wanted to be home RIGHT then, to instantly be with my mom...but instead I had to wait until 7 in the morning for our flight that we booked immediately to go home.
My dad was my best friend and the #1 guy in my life for 20 years of my life. Then I got married and thank God he was still alive then to see me get married, to walk me down the aisle and to give me away. I know it made him sad though and that him and my mom missed me so much when we moved to California. The longest I had ever been away from my parents was for 2 weeks, so it was a huge change for all of us.
The fact that I moved away during his last year of life just haunts me and makes me feel so guilty. I wish I would have been home so that I would have been seeing him weekly like I used to. The last time I saw him was for Christmas this last year. My husband and I had a trip booked to go home to Washington on June 11th already...I would have been seeing my dad in about 4 weeks...but then he died. I was so close to seeing him again...that haunts me too. :(
I've never felt a pain like this and I wish I wasn't going through it. But I am. If anyone is a believer out there, please say a quick prayer for me. I really need it in this time.