Lost my dad to liver cancer
(Los Angeles, ca)
My dad was diagnosed with liver cancer in April, 2009. We took him to treatment but he was at stage 4, so it was nearly impossible to get rid of the cancer. My father died November 4th 2009. He was only 60.
I'll never forget that day. I basically saw my dad take his last breath in front of me and within seconds, he was gone. He died in his own bed with all of us around him.
It has been so difficult to deal with it. I cry every other day and I find myself going into depression. My mom is not the same because my parents were the perfect couple. My dad was everything to me and in some ways I was his little girl.
I am so angry, I don't know how to deal with things and just recently my boyfriend and I broke up after 5 years. I have lost myself and I don't know how to find myself. I have been trying to go out with friends, gym, etc, but nothing seems to be working. I am so lonely and I don't know what to do.