Lost my daddy a month before my wedding
by Amanda Hinton
My daddy passed away a little over a week ago, on February 24, 2012 at the young age of 49. He had a massive heart attack. Daddy and I had a unique relationship as he and my mom were divorced for almost 20 years. He had since remarried and they have two children. My daddy didn't reach out to me much, but we did see eachother every month or so and texted here and there. I have a lot of bitterness towards him for many reasons, but since I got engaged in September, Daddy and I were talking more and getting closer. He loved my fiance' and was very excited about our wedding. He was going to give me away, and had picked a special song for our dance. I am getting married on March 24 and I am not excited anymore.. I don't even want to go to my own wedding. My fiance' is supportive but it hurts him that I am not looking forward to our special day. I have a million emotions.. I am afraid I haven't dealt with the reality yet.. I am afraid it will hit me as I walk down the aisle without him.