Lost my daddy on 12/23/12

by Ashley

My dad is man that is known and loved by EVERYONE in my town. He was such a caring person with a great sense of humor. He put others in front of himself every time. He never met a stranger, just a new friend. I'm just so bothered that in June I left for military training and I got back on December 6th. I arranged a cruise for the following week and my dad and I spoke and set up a lunch date for when I got back from vacation. I called him from the Bahamas to tell him how well our trip was going and we also talked about Christmas arrangements. I got back and didn't call him the same day because we drove so much so I planned for the following day to call him and do our lunch date but that was the day I got the call......

I rushed to the hospital but he was gone. but he'd been non responsive to medical personnel since they arrived at his house. It was so sudden, so unexpected, and sti unexplainable. Nobody knows what happened to him yet. His girlfriend went to check on him because he didn't answer the phone and he was beside his bed on the floor. It's so unfair and I hate thinking of my dad in that way. I still refuse to believe it. This man was healthy. He did take medication for tremors though. The doctor said it may have been a diabetic seizure that led to a coma and ultimately his death but he didn't have diabetes! This is such an irritating event and it makes me so angry. I hate that this has happened and ill probably never be the same. I just don't know what to do without my daddy. There's so much I needed him for still in my life. So much I needed him to explain to me still.

To top it all off, I've been to church many, many times. But I over think things too much and sometimes I wonder if heaven and god are all something we believe in to make ourselves feel better about the death of somebody. I know that's ultimately not true, but it's just something that constantly runs through my head and bothers me more.

I'm only 18, I NEED my father. ):

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Dec 27, 2012
Lost my daddy on 12/23/12
by: Doreen U.K.

I am so sorry for your loss of your Dad. You are only 18yrs. and so young to lose your dad from your life.
To some people Church, God, an afterlife, and Heaven may be a comfort to think of to make themselves feel better. But HEAVEN. GOD. AN AFTERLIFE. are all very real. Death was never in God's plan of life. Man sinned and so brought Death upon mankind. But God's heart was aching for his Creation of Man and so God decided to send his son as a baby to be born on earth so that Jesus could be touched by our suffering and live with the same temptations as us. YET WITHOUT SIN. Jesus was successful in fulfilling the Plan of Salvation. Through this sacrifice of Jesus death man has eternal life as long as he has accepted Jesus as his Lord and Saviour. Jesus then went back to Heaven after he died for us and said. "I am going back to prepare a place for you so that where I am there you may be also. Death will be destroyed forever and a new heaven and a new earth will be established wherein dwells righteousness. Man will have come home and those who know Jesus will be resurrected to live with Jesus forever where there will be no more DEATH. NO MORE SORROW.
I hope that this will answer your question. Man will live again. I live with the HOPE I will see my husband again. I live by FAITH. Now this Plan of Salvation is worth living for with HOPE. May God surround you with His Love and Comfort.

Dec 27, 2012
I need my daddy
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry "that comment just doesn't work." I lost my father on 8/22 of this year. I am still grieving and in my forties. I was with him when he died, he had been diagnosed with lung cancer. I sat with him the day I knew he would die in the home I grew up in. If it helps, he got verbally spiritual before he died. He read the Bible everyday and I believe God spoke to him everyday. I believe everything he did that led up to his death in those ten months was because of God. He knew he was dying but he was funny, spiritual, still teaching how to be a good person and always gracious. "God always spoke through him." In those ten months God gave us a show through my father.

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