Lost my dear mother
I lost my beloved mother January 24, 2014. I took care of her the last two weeks of her life. I laid in bed with her, I slept on the floor beside her bed, I sat in a chair and laid my head by her feet, I cried for over 2 weeks non stop, while I cared for her. I feel selfish that in the middle of the night I laid my head on her chest and sobbed, who comforted who? For the first week I could feel her presence with me which was such a comfort, and then wham!! The grief overtook my life, most days I feel sick because my heart is so heavy. I lost 15lbs. I remember she didn't eat for 9 days, I feel every ounce of pain she experienced in her life. I can nearly handle swinging my feet to the side if the bed to stand and get up in the morning. When does this get any better? I feel paralyzed with grief. I sought counseling, talked with a priest and I still cannot find an ounce of comfort. I know she would want me to be happy, but without her I don't know how!