lost my forever love

by Debbie
(NC)

I met a man while I was ending an marriage, that I fell so in love with; I never knew I could love a man so much. We moved in together about 6 months after we met, things were great almost all the time, now I'm not a teenager, I'm in my 40s at the time. I moved myself and family to NY to be with him, gave up everything because i knew it was forever.

Things were great until his mother and sister got involved and let me and him know they didn't want me with him. They did everything to cause problems, even calling in the middle of the night cause they knew I worked first shift.

He was on disability and they were in control of his money till I got there. Long story short , after 3 years of them torturing our relationship, we moved to another state. Things were good till the money started getting tight, and I was working ALL the time.

I didn't know it, but I had a secret admirer who would always leave roses on my car at work, well of course this drove him crazy, and I was being accused of all kinds of things. Finally he called his mother and she sent him a ticket back to NY, he left without me knowing he was leaving, and the last thing he said was he loved me.

I ended up marrying this new man (rebound) a few years later, regretting it the whole time, now we are divorcing, because I can't stop loving my ex-fiance. I am emotionally unable to move on, I can't find him, and feel like my life is waste of time. It's been 6 and half years, how do you move on?