Lost my huband of 45 years a month ago.
I just lost my husband of 45 years and it is hard to know he will never come through the door again.
The first few days, I didn't want to live any longer, but then I got busy with the Funeral home, bank, land title change and paying our bills for the first time in my entire life and I realized I am capable to manage.
It is a lonely life and at my age, I know this will be the way for the rest of my life.
2 weeks after he died I was desperate to get help and joined a widow group and that was a blessing.
There I found people who have gone through it and understand. We meet every 3rd Wed. and have outings in small groups like a breakfast meeting every Saturday, the odd dinner and even a movie night which I haven't joined yet, but reaching out helps a lot.
In one month, I have managed to cash in a life insurance policy, my husbands credit card cancelled and applied for part of a pension that is available for widows in Canada.
Since my husband was very ill for several years, the house needed some work, but I had installed a new Water Heater, had new Gutters installed on the house and all that kept me pretty busy without going mad.
My advise is, keep busy to get over the first little while. The hurt will probably never go away and I will miss my husband forever, but it does make you feel better to be self sufficient .