Lost my husband 10/20/2010

by Jacqueline Friedl
(Caledonia, Il USA)

My husband was my best friend, we did everything together, including working. He was told he had pancreatic cancer in March of 2010, he had his gallbladder removed in Oct, of 2009 and wasn't getting any better. The doctors told him it was just side effects of surgery, he was continuing to lose weight and diarrhea. Finally in March he was in such pain, I went with him to the doctor and asked about weight loss, the doctor had a surprised look on his face and started checking him out.

They ordered ultrasound and found something not right on pancreas. After a month of testing they determined he had cancer. It was a very long month. We were referred to an oncologist in April and started chemo, nothing can be done for the cancer, but make them more comfortable and give them a little more time. We had some good times and bad times, he lived 7 month's and only the last one was really bad.

Life has been really different without him, from being numb, to doing crazy things. Going on dating sites to find someone to fill the void, I have 5 children and they are going thru this too.
Jackie