lost my husband while on vacation
by liz prins
I am in my 3rd month since my husbands passing, he died 6th january 2012 in USA. My husband Randall of 25 years together for 27 (age 44) i am 43,We are from South Africa and have 3 daughters age 25, 18 and 14. Our eldest lives in the USA is married and was expecting her first baby the 7th December 2011. Our first grandson. We left for the USA 1st Dec 2011 and our beautiful grandson Jacob was born 7th December 2011. A month went by with us spending wonderful bonding time with our 3 daughters, son-in-law and new baby Jacob. Suddenly 6th January 2012 my husband had a massive heart attack i was standing next to him and having a lovely conversation when he collapsed he died immediately, it was like living in a nightmare, We had an autopsy done, had to have him cremated had to have many paperwork done, I returned back to South Africa with my two younger daughters and a box of ashes (my husbands remains) that was the longest 30hr flight of my life, i wanted to jump out of the plane, Back home in South Africa i am a mess, there is too much to do, i cannot sleep, eat or function. We have our own company and i have to run it all by myself. I am devastated this was not suppose to happen, we went to visit our children overseas to witness the birth of our grandson, we were suppose to grow old together and witness many more births.For me to it seems like many years had passed. Some days i do better and other days it feels like he has just passed away. I am very lonely i miss him so very much.