lost my lover my future

by TLT
(long island)

I was the other woman he was the other man . we have been together for two years nine months when he went running one night and died. we were are future and this june was going to be our time when we were going to make the move and let everyone know we were together. You always read about how someone loves a person and you say yea right how can that be. I found that love at 50 years old. after being married to someone for 28 years. I found my best friend my partner in life who we wanted to spend the remaining time together with. the night he died i feel guilty because I didnt ask him to stay in that night and get ready for a up coming business trip on wednesday so we could see each other on tuesday night. He died on a monday night. I sometimes did not want to put stress on him because enough stress was with work.I know if i asked him to stay in he would have. I am also feeling guilty for not telling him to go to the dr for a checkup when something wasn't working right( if you know what i mean)again just thought it was stress. i am grateful that we had the time that we had and he showed me what it really was to feel the true love of a man. he called me his queen and treated me like that. he treated me like no other man has in the time I was dating to the man I am married to.I was his and he was mine.I walk around pretending I am ok living life like playing charades. THE 7TH OF THIS MONTH WILL BE 3 MONTHS WITHOUT MY LOVER MY BEST FRIEND MY FUTURE.THANK YOU LOVER FOR SHOWING ME YOU!

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Apr 01, 2013
lost my lover my future.
by: Doreen U.K.

TLT I am sorry for your loss of your secret love. Life is so very unusual. Often some people stay in an unhappy loveless marriage. They stay there forever. When you find the magic in a relationship, it is soon cut down and ends in death. Without sounding cynical, I feel as if the universe has somehow reversed things. We don't get to keep the good. We lose it too soon. The bad we will have forever, be it friends or enemies.
Because we live in a fallen world of SIN. We won't have what we want when we want it. But there is coming a day when this will end and we live in a world of righteousness and we will know LOVE as we were meant to. NO MORE PAIN, SORROW, DEATH. This is the life we need. Where we get to keep our loved one's FOREVER.
I am sorry for your loss. Are you still with your husband of 28yrs? Perhaps you could put all your energies into what you have and hope that you can improve life as you know it.

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