lost my mom a 2 months ago, she was 50

i am 16 years old. my mom committed suicide and i found her body after 4 days. i had many physical reactions the first month, and a panic attack the night after the funeral. me and my dad designed and built her grave. she was a special person, but she suffered so much because of dark things in her past. rest in peace mommy ill love you forever

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Jan 28, 2012
I understand
by: Anonymous

I also found my beloved mother dead on 11/1 2011. The sight of her laying on the bathroom floor will haunt me forever. I was deeply devoted to my mother. She was my confidant, best friend and companion. She would listen to me rant endlessly about anything that bothered me.. I will miss my mother as long as I live. I am in grief therapy, counseling and NOTHING makes me feel better. Grief is paralyzing... However, this devastating experience has reaffirmed my faith in God. Pray and ask for help!! He will help, it will eventually come.

Aug 27, 2011
Lost your mom

I am truly sorry that at such a tender young age you must face this reality. Life is a complicated venture for all as we muddle through never knowing where it will lead us. Suicide is part of the complication leaving loved ones to grieve, bewildered and without true closure. Please know you are not
alone as there are many children of all ages who have traveled the path you are on. A support group may help you understand that you are not at fault and no one person is the reason for suicide. We are all different and some are weaker than others. Know that your mom is now with you in spirit and free from the demons that took over when she was weak.
I pray for you to find the peace and love you deserve. This will not be easy and I encourage you to get help if needed to get through the emotions within. Sending you hugs and prayers.

Aug 27, 2011
by: Anonymous

She had to be special, she had input into the person you are. You are a strong and caring person.

I hope we get answers..you for your moms suicide, mine for my sons' slooooow dance with death (heroin)


Aug 27, 2011
Sorry for your loss
by: Connie

I cannot imagine what it was like to be the one to find your mother's body. Or being 16 years old and losing the one person who is supposed to take care of you no matter what.

Obviously your mother was in a lot of pain. I am sure she didn't want to kill herself just to die. I imagine she just wanted the intense sadness, overwhelming pain and a dark existence to end.

Please know that her suicide is no ones fault. Only a person needing to rid herself of what she knew as a horrible life.

I believe she has passed on to a much better place now. A place where she is no longer tormented, sad or depressed. She is all love and light and experiencing things we can only dream of.

May you know peace, love, joy and wonder in this life, just as it is.

You are in my thoughts.
Connie Williams
Nashville, TN

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