lost my mom to cancer too soon

My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in May of 2012. When my parents told me and my siblings the news we were heartbroken. The following months after that, many things changed in our house. My mom was often tired and we couldn't do many of the family activities that we had done before. Even if we did try to do them, it just wasn't the same.


I once heard someone say that cancer is a word, not a death sentence. When my mom was diagnosed, I kept that in mind and I always remembered that my mom would end up just fine. She would always talk about how, when she got through all of her treatment, she wanted to volunteer at the cancer center. This alone tells you that she was a wonderful woman.

I entered my freshman year of college out of state in the fall of 2012 (the same year that my mom was diagnosed with cancer). My mom and I never discussed my leaving (with her having cancer) because we figured that it was what was best for me. Plus, I have two other siblings and wonderful father that would be there with her while I was at school.

Unfortunately, a couple weeks ago I received a call from my dad saying that I needed to return home because my mother wasnt doing well. Immediately, I knew that my mom didn't have much longer. The day after I returned home, my family sat in the room at the hospital and held my mothers hand as she died. I have never felt more empty, lonely, hopeless, and sad in my life. The fact that I cannot call her or text her when I want to talk kills me. There are so many conversations that we never had the chance to have.

Every morning since she died, I wake up feeling empty and lonely. I feel like I cannot relate to anyone besides my siblings, because even my uncles and aunts don't know what it feels like to lose their mothers. Though I have family close to me experiencing the pain from my mother's loss, this is a very lonely feeling. However, I do know that my mom blessed me with strength and courage that I will soon try to find and show to help me get through this.I cant believe I'm having to type this right now. I never thought I'd say goodbye to you at 18, but I guess this was God's plan for you. You will always be the best woman I have had the pleasure to know, and no one will ever take your place. I have 1000 memories I shared with you and I thank God for them. Thank you so much for everything. I love you and will remember you, forever.


Love,
your daughter.

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Mar 08, 2013
Lost my mom to cancer too soon
by: Doreen U.K.

I am sorry for your loss of your mom from cancer. Unfortunately when the word Cancer is heard the first thing most people think of is. "Oh! My God I'm going to die." This is how I felt on the worst day of my life March 28th 2009 My husband of 44yrs. was told he had an incurable, inoperable, aggressive cancer. So for him Cancer was not just a word it was a DEATH SENTENCE. I nursed him for 3yrs.39days and he died May 5th 2012. So Yes I know how Lonely and Empty Death leave's one feeling. But this is also part of the grief. It doesn't go on forever. It has a journey of however long none of us knows. Grief is different for everyone. The type of death and the relationship to the person who died is what determines how long our grief will last and how long we work with our grief. Just don't repress it. Let the feelings and memories flow. Cry a lot and You will heal from this loss. You are so very young. Don't forget your father. Keep an eye on him and keep the lines of communication going every day if you can. Don't be afraid to ask your father How he is doing. Don't just assume he is O.K. if he looks well. He has lost a wife and the grief is different. You will all get through this grief with good support to each other.

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