lost my mom to cancer too soon
My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in May of 2012. When my parents told me and my siblings the news we were heartbroken. The following months after that, many things changed in our house. My mom was often tired and we couldn't do many of the family activities that we had done before. Even if we did try to do them, it just wasn't the same.
I once heard someone say that cancer is a word, not a death sentence. When my mom was diagnosed, I kept that in mind and I always remembered that my mom would end up just fine. She would always talk about how, when she got through all of her treatment, she wanted to volunteer at the cancer center. This alone tells you that she was a wonderful woman.
I entered my freshman year of college out of state in the fall of 2012 (the same year that my mom was diagnosed with cancer). My mom and I never discussed my leaving (with her having cancer) because we figured that it was what was best for me. Plus, I have two other siblings and wonderful father that would be there with her while I was at school.
Unfortunately, a couple weeks ago I received a call from my dad saying that I needed to return home because my mother wasnt doing well. Immediately, I knew that my mom didn't have much longer. The day after I returned home, my family sat in the room at the hospital and held my mothers hand as she died. I have never felt more empty, lonely, hopeless, and sad in my life. The fact that I cannot call her or text her when I want to talk kills me. There are so many conversations that we never had the chance to have.
Every morning since she died, I wake up feeling empty and lonely. I feel like I cannot relate to anyone besides my siblings, because even my uncles and aunts don't know what it feels like to lose their mothers. Though I have family close to me experiencing the pain from my mother's loss, this is a very lonely feeling. However, I do know that my mom blessed me with strength and courage that I will soon try to find and show to help me get through this.I cant believe I'm having to type this right now. I never thought I'd say goodbye to you at 18, but I guess this was God's plan for you. You will always be the best woman I have had the pleasure to know, and no one will ever take your place. I have 1000 memories I shared with you and I thank God for them. Thank you so much for everything. I love you and will remember you, forever.