Lost my Mom to cancer

Lost my Mom to cancer recently. Anger and guilt now rules my life. Dealing with it the best I can. Lots of fist fights. Anti social behavior. Uncontrollable emotions at times. Alone and orphaned. World ain't the same. Can't hold down a job anymore. Jealous of other people that still have a family. Guilt of not being a better son. Should have been more understanding of her condition and been accepting of her own body's limitations. Hope when I pass that I meet cancer so I can give him a proper beating for all of us. Much love to all that feel the same. Writing this so you know you ain't alone.

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Dec 06, 2013
Lost my Mom to cancer
by: Doreen UK

I am sorry for your loss of your mom to cancer. The way you are feeling is normal when you lose a close loved one. Your mom nurtured you and you were her son and she was proud of you. Don't be hard on yourself or beat yourself up at this time. See a good counsellor who will help you work through your anger issues if it is causing you to be anti social and interfere with you working again. Anger is part of grief but if it is causing aggression with fists then it needs to be confronted. You don't have to live like this. Something has triggered off all these emotions since your moms death. None of us knows how we will react when we lose a close loved one. We don't know what to expect and struggle to find our way back. There is no shame in needing support and perhaps professional help. I did counselling years ago at a difficult time in my life and in 4yrs. of counselling I resolved 40yrs. of depression. My thought life is better. I am FREE-ER in my spirit. I got my life back in ways I never thought possible. I now know what LIVING IS for the first time. I lost my husband of 44yrs. 19 months ago to a deadly cancer caused by working with asbestos. I know how difficult the cancer journey is. PAINFUL watching your loved one die slowly. I nursed him for 3yrs.39days before he died. He became aggressive, moody, irritable and all those emotions that come with such a disease. Not part of his placid nature, but cancer changed him. Not easy to live with cancer. Don't give yourself a hard time. Nurture yourself in a positive way and LOVE YOURSELF. despite your failings because we have a human nature that lets us down often. I wish you comfort and Peace in your grief.

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