lost my mum through murder
I cannot even begin to tell how hard it was for me when mum said bye on 11th January 2012. that was the last time I saw her. She never came back home, never called and we did not know where she was. it took us 3 excruciating months to find her. In a morgue. not recognizable as she was murdered and dumped somewhere and by the time someone found her, she was decomposing.
3 months in hell. and I thought Icould get closure if we found her. No. I can still see images of her getting strangled. I have so much anger and pain in me, I cannot even explain. No amount of alcohol can numb some feelings.
we buried her on 20th April 2012. She was my mentor, we talked everyday on phone ,,and I was actually visiting when all this happened.
Her friends have been a pillar. mine have been too. I cannot imagine what would have happened without family and friends.
I know my brother is hurting too.. we are only 2 children. He is as devastated as I am and I cant help him.
I cant help myself either.
I just hope that one day the pain will easen and I will not have so much bitterness. I love you mum