Lost my older brother
My older brother passed away 4/3/12. He was only 24. Two months before he was supposed to get married. I love him very much, and miss him a lot. He got into a car accident, and after a month in a coma, he died due to a serious brain injury that made him completely brain damaged. His funeral was the first I went to. He was ten years older than me, and I now realize that one day I am going to be older than him. He won't see me grow up, or graduate high school. He told me if he had a daughter he would want her to look like me. He told me I was going to be an aunt within the next ten years. Now that will never happen. I will never know what it would be like to have a niece or nephew. I don't know anyone who's lost a sibling before, so I feel like the only one. A lot of people I know have older brothers and they keep talking about them, and I just get reminded that mine isn't here. I have never missed someone so much before. I see people on their fifties with their whole family still alive, and here I am at 15 grieving such an unexpected loss. I feel so alone. I expected maybe my parents, but not my brother. When everyone keeps talking about their big brother or nephew, I feel like they're rubbing it in my face.