Lost my sister my best friend!

by Fabi
(Las vegas)

My sister and I lived together she just turned 33. On her birthday I took her to a fancy restaurant and a show ( as she always wanted that) never did I imagine that it would be the last birthday we would spend together. Writing this is so hard, I feel so lost and I always keep asking my self why me? It was on April 21st this year when I got back home and as usual I would go to her room to give her a good night kiss and as always we would stay forever talking about anything. As soon as I found her I tough she was sleeping I tried to wake her up because she wasn't at her bed when I realized she was very cold and I couldn't move her. I didn't get to see her beautiful face because her hair was covering it but oh God I never in my life tough I was going to feel so much pain. I don't know what to do I still dial her number after work to hear her voice and I miss her so much she was my mom, my best friend and my older sister. I feel angry most of the time and nothing makes sense. I try to stay strong for my parents but every night I come back home and cry until I fall sleep. Everything in her room still the same, everything smells like her and if you only had the chance to met her she was the funniest and friendliest person ever and I miss her so much.

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Jun 17, 2012
Thank you!
by: Faby

I'm extremely thankful with all your thoughts and support you guys are so kind to share some of your life stories with me, it feels better to have people that listen and can understand all this.. Diego, time has not made it easier for me I just feel numb most of the time. I still have so many questions about her, I just want to know if she's fine and happy. They are a couple of books that I am planning reading that might help you, 90 minutes in heaven and purpose driven life. Another thing that will help you is to look for a grief group I'm sure they are plenty in your community for no cost, I found the one I go on the Internet. There are no words to heal all of our pain but sharing this makes it easier to live day by day.

Jun 16, 2012
I'm lost
by: Diego

Hi Fabi, I just lost my brother two weeks ago, he was only 26, he died for a heart attack, Doctors called it "sudden death"...I feel devastated, nothing have sense anymore, is it worth living anymore? I'm completely lost, its like a part of me also die that day...I just want to ask if this feeling gets better with time? is it possible to heal? I think I'm going crazy and soon will have to go to a mental institution.

Jun 14, 2012
I lost My sister too
by: Leigh from North Carolina

I read your post and I wanted you know that I feel your pain, I lost my Sister and Best Friend on Feb 22 2012 to a sudden unexpected illness. The Death of my Sister is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, we lost our parents several years ago and when they died we had each other and my 3 brothers to help get through it, and even though I have my 3 brothers its like I am still alone, the bond between sisters is something that can not be explained as I am sure you know what I am talking about. I don,t think the days ever get better I think you just learn to live with the pain and the loss. I too cried everyday for several months its just now getting to where I dont, there are good days and bad days,but there is still not a day that doesnt go by that I dont in some way think about my Sister. I hope that things get better for you soon. I just wanted to share with you that you are not alone on this Journey of Grief, someone told me something to do when you are having a bad day is to think of something funny or silly that you and your sister shared and write it down no one ever has to see it but you its like something that you can still share with your sister that will be between just you and her..

Jun 13, 2012
Dear Sister
by: Anonymous

I'm sorry you are in such pain. I pray that God will comfort you as only He can. I lost my youngest son on May 11, 2012, we are hurting but we rejoice that we will see our son again in Heaven. Peace, Love, & Comfort I pray for you, Pam

Jun 13, 2012
Lost sister 33yrs.
by: Doreen England U.K.

Dear Fabi
I am sorry for the loss of your sister of 33yrs.
It is difficult to move forward. You will be in a lot of pain for some time and this will be hard for your to believe she is gone. Losing a sister is one of the hardest to bear as she will have been very supportive and loving to you. Sisters have a special bond and it helps us pass through life better. I have 4 sisters and it would be unbearable to lose any one of them. 3 of my sisters are such a great support to me whilst I grieve the loss of my husband of 44 years who died of cancer 5 weeks ago and I buried him on 25th May 2012.
You will find it hard for some time to cope with this loss. One day at a time is all we can do to cope. You can't be strong for your parents. Each has to do their own grieving and you may retard any healing progress you make by carrying the load for your parents. Be supportive but don't feel you can carry their load as you will suffer an emotional injury and it will be hard to recover from this. I wish you Peace and Love in the days ahead as you grieve.

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